Naked like the Moon

The moons seems to be closer than you are sometimes.
You can see it from afar but you can't touch it.
It listens to everything you say..
But when you ask something you get no answer, no reply.
It's like it knows everything about you and you know nothing.
So distant.
You don't really let me get close to you.
Is it cause I'm awful?
The me you know scares you already? 
Don't you know - with you being so faraway makes me feel..
So alienated.
Like I'm so useless.
I feel useless really.
You deserve so much more than this.
Happiness, good nights sleep, a good life. 
But if you wont let me in.
I cant help you.  

The other night you said, you find it hard to open up to people. Is it cause you been hurt a lot? And you find it very difficult to trust people? I won't say, I know what you been through. Cause I prolly don't.

I saw this tiny post box, while on my way to work. I stopped and stared at it. Thought to myself, only if you could write whatever is on your mind and post your thought to me through this post box? It would be magical!

But, I just want you to know - that I'm there for you whenever you wanna talk. About anything. We did start as friends, and till this date I cherish our friendship. Being able to talk to you about anything is one of the best thing ever. I just want you to know that whatever you tell me, from now on will not make me change how I feel about you. Being able to hear your story, makes me feel closer to you. A little closer in knowing the real you. I honestly do feel I don't know the much about you. It might be too soon, but I do wanna know the real you. Hope you understand me.

From today, we start fresh

From now on whatever I write now in this blog shall be only about you <3
This is my way of getting to know you better...
No expectations
No shoes to fill in
No silly titles 
Don't be afraid to let me know what you're thoughts are
Or whatever else that is on you're mind. 
Cause this is the one single thread that binds us together. 
I'm
Not done with. Not just yet.  

And I'll be writing about you
Until you fade out from my memory
Even if we are not together 
Even if we are not friends anymore 
Well I'll will stop unless I die of course
But this ones dedication to You. 

From today, we start fresh. 

For how long do I need to be strong? Almost forgotten of what the strong means anymore. I feel I reached my limit already. And everyday it's the same story over and over again. You disowned me once and you wished I was dead. Seriously, do you really have to remind me EVERYDAY of how you wished I was dead. And truthfully, I do wish I was dead. I honestly do. I mean this would at-least end these endless arguments.

Sigh.

First Fight (Well, ish)

There is so much I wanna tell you, so much I wanna say. 

Sigh
I'll blame no one else but me, if ever things don't work out between us. Theres only so much anyone can take really. I do feel you really don't deserve all this. I see you just wanting to spend time with me but all I tell give is excuses - parents, sister, mates. How long will you wait? I'm not testing your patience here, but if I were in your shoes I'd give up on me.

Sorry for walking away from you earlier. I wasn't really mad at you (well upset for dissin' Arsenal - sorry we haven't been together that long for you to diss my club - quoting you here).
I understand you are really busy with work and I got my deadlines too. But I really wanted to see you =(
Sorry for being so childish then. 

My heartaches when I think about us. Is this it? Sigh 

PS please stay out of my head x

I'll Be Okay Tomorrow

Because my job got me nowhere
So I got nothing to lose
Take me to a place where I don't care
This is me and my liquor store blues
I take one shot for my pain
One drag for my sorrows
Get messed up today 
I'll be okay tomorrow.

Lyrics:
Bruno Mars - Liquor Store Blues 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a0p_x416sa0

Thunder

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder,
And I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder

Lyrics:
Boys Like Girls - Thunder